Baby

I am officially in my second trimester. I have been trying to stick with Ana but I have a bad feeling when I do, just because the baby is looking at me as it's life support. When they say a baby changes you I guess they really were not lying. It's just rough because Ana has always been there for me and now I have my soon to be husband and baby on the way. My whole life is spinning out of my control and I cannot do anything to stop it. I guess I'm just going to hold on and see where life takes me.

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Busy Day

I had 2 cups of sliced peaches this morning for breakfast which is 120 calories. I did not sleep very well last night, I kept waking up and I just could not sleep through the night. I feel like my cold has pretty much gone away like i'm at 90% now. When I woke up this morning I did 100 sit-ups and I plan on running a mile outside today. I have a busy day today. I have to work and then go to babysit a kitty for my brother and his wife. I am getting anxious with my trip fast approaching. I cannot wait to go down to Southern Illinois to visit my fiance.

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Ana Creed

Thin is beauty; therefore I must be thin, and remain thin, If I wish to be loved. Food is my ultimate enemy. I may look, and I may smell, but I may not touch! 

I must think about food every second of every minute of every hour of every day and ways to avoid eating it. 

I must weigh myself, first thing, every morning, and keep that number in mind throughout the remainder of that day. Should that number be greater than it was the day before, I must fast that entire day. 

I shall not be tempted by the enemy (food), and I shall not give into temptation should it arise. Should I be in such a weakened state and I should cave, I will feel guilty and punish myself accordingly, for I have failed her. 

I will be thin, at all costs. It is the most important thing; nothing else matters. 

I will devote myself to Ana. She will be with me where ever I go, keeping me in line. No one else matters; she is the only one who cares about me and who understands me. I will honor Her and make Her proud. To the end of my life!

Ana Beliefs

-I believe in Control, the only force mighty enough to bring order to the chaos that is my world.
-I believe that I am the most vile, worthless and useless person ever to have existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and attention.
-I believe that other people who tell me differently must be idiots. If they could see how I really am, then they would hate me almost as much as I do.
-I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.
-I believe in salvation through trying just a bit harder than I did yesterday.
-I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of god, and memorise them accordingly.
-I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily successes and failures.
-I believe in hell, because I sometimes think that I'm living in it.
-I believe in a wholly black and white world, the losing of weight, recrimination for sins, the abnegation of the body and a life ever fasting. 

7 Deadly Sins

Gluttony eating or drinking to excess - go ana, you just kicked Gluttony's arse.
Sloth Laiziness, only fat people eat and don't exercise
Lust Strong sexual desire... well we have a strong desire for food? teach youself to hate food, no more desire, no more lust.
Greed Fat people are greedy. Once you overcome temptation, you can do anything.
Envy If you are ana you don't have you envy those beautiful thin people, because you will be beautiful too.
Pride Eating competitions. EW. people take pride in stuffing their fat gobs with as much fat pumped food as possible. Don't be proud of eating.
Anger After a binge, what do you think? Guilt and Anger, you hate yourself for it. Don't eat = Don't be angry with yourself.