Day One

I have been struggling all day trying to get back to the way I was. I know I have an ED and it makes me who I am and it makes me happy. It makes me feel like I can control something in my life. This is really not a thing to me but more of a friend and her name is Ana. We have had our fights but in the end we always find our way back to each other. I started back on this journey because I realized the waste of space I was becoming yet again. I went through treatment and now I am finally completely free to do what I want again. I do not want to be a waste of space I want to be full and happy again. I can only be happy with Ana by my side. I made my Holy Bible, my thinspo today. My thinspo has always been workout routines, because the women in the pictures look how I want to be. I am a fat waste of space. This needs to change, Ana is back and our friendship is stronger then before. This is my story, I do not need any negative comments so go elsewhere if you want to post any.